Breakup is coming to town!!!?
Thursday, December 10th, 2009Oh my Gosh!
Today was totally crap!!!
I am dating someone in the office and lastnight we had such a fight that this is it
I can see breakup coming!!
This time I believe I wont be stopping it
We have been fighting so much that this reminds my of my previous Taiwanese girlfriend ( in 2 years we brokeup about 20 times)
and I promise near to be there again and I seems exactly where I am heading to…
I have been down all day, I honestly dont want to loose her but she has said things that I never imagine that were happening,
I feel completly lost but I am keeping my feet on earth …still.
This one will hit hard….
I dont know what I want you to tell me…
go for her (because its fight over fight)
or sometime to feel less pain (I dont know is feeling less is the best answer)
I dont know if its the MPS that she s going thru (coz it will come again)
I dont know if its because we both have great expectations for each other.
Let me know something….
Been there and survived that! WE never fall in love looking to fall out of love! Here’s my brief story:
Loved girl! Worked together great. Broke up after over a year of going out..another fight! It grew over time that the best thing we were good at was how to fight and keep the fighting going on! When ever is too much fighting a good thing for a healthy relationship? It’s NOT!
Then the night came. We watched a movie and the whole night you could feel something bad (very bad) was around the corner…I could tell by the way she was acting. After that much time together, I knew when she was not happy. Then it happened. We fought. Words that can not be taken back were said. Feelings were deeply hurt. Tears were shed! Goodbyes were cemented!
And we broke up for good. That’s what she wanted.
Now years later it stil hurts to even write this and think of her! My friends to this day are still not even allowed to talk of her. She not only tore my heart apart, she broke my soul. I lived and learned. With time. I eventually got over her and found a new love of my life. We don’t fight as much! And I am truly happy again. (Never thought I would say that!)
So what did I learn. After years, I am wierldy thankful to her for breaking it off with me and did not keep ignoring the break-up signs that I ignored. She was man enough to do what I was afraid of. SHe saw the writing on the wall and made me see it too. She for a long time was my security blanket, someone I fell upon. I thought it was better to BE in a relationship than to be OUT of one. I was wrong! She saved me from another year of goiong through the love actions and of thinking that we were meant for each other. WE weren’t! We grew apart and our relationship had fullfilled its purpose and was falling in the same ol’ dull routine: Fight, apologize, make up, love again, happy, get upset, fight, etc…
I still think of her. She was the best mistake I ever did. She showed me how to love. She prepared me for my new love. What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger, right? I wish you the best in what you do. Don’ t make the same mistake I did and waste another year of your life on a never-was-meant-to-be relationship. Get alone, away from her, spend some time with your thoughts and see what she really means to you and what is to become of the realtionship!! Best of luck!
Ideas on how to peacefully coexist and interact with your Ex.
